So I was really inspired by this Atmosphere track and decided to do my own version of the song. Here's the original: Atmosphere - Yesterday
Here's my version, to the instrumental of course Yesterday (Instrumental)
Dedicated to my favorite lady. :)
(Also if you read this at all, read it till the end) :)

VERSE 1:

 I often wish, you'd come to my front door/

Just so I can say hello to you again once more/

They say I'm clingy, I say they're misconstrued/

Is it really a surprise that I'm truly missing you?/

You knew me at a younger age, boy am I so different/

If only you could listen to my dreams and all my visions/

You'd be so proud, I have no doubt about it/

I'd have you back in the house if it meant it being crowded/

Our time spent together, nothing will compare to it/

Its just too bad that it came to a terminus/

You had so many friends I could hardly keep track of it/

Who still love you too the result is all too flattering/

My favorite memory would have to be the following/

Feeding the swans followed by us simply wandering/

The promises are gone that you had made to me/

You'd be there if I need just that was so okay to me/

HOOK:

Tomorrow, will you come back to me?/

I'm missing you and so does my family/

Waiting for you, holding it anxiously/

Or am I wasting time on these here fantasies?

[x2]

VERSE 2:

Not always present, I realize that in hindsight/

Was blinded by your smile to me it was dynamite/

A memory of your laugh lingers in my eardrum/

It paints a pretty picture every time that I hear one/

You introduced me to my life and all the good music too/

Its usable to me in times that I'm feeling blue/

I think of you, every time I put the record on/

Flip it over more times than theres sides on a hexagon/

Taught me how to eat right and taught me how to be nice/

Organic vegetables bringing pancakes to a knife fight/

Its what I miss the most, you had a sense of humour too/

You'd make me laugh every time even when they were unusual/

Thanks for the lessons they gave me a good attitude/

Was stopped in my tracks when I saw you on the avenue/

But was that you? Or is my mind playing tricks?/

If only it was, wouldn't that have been spontaneous?/

HOOK:

Tomorrow, will you come back to me?/

I'm missing you and so does my family/

Waiting for you, holding it anxiously/

Or am I wasting time on these here fantasies?

[x2]

VERSE 3:

One day you left, there's not much I coulda done/

Its not like I can go out and just find me another one/

But I saw it coming and I hate to admit it/

I simply feel like some things were left unfinished/

Was angry when you left, its not like it was my fault/

And not yours either infected wounds with sea salt/

You walked out the front door I'm speaking metaphorical/

Deplorable conditions leaving me so horrible/

I'm not blaming you so please don't misunderstand/

I'd have you back in a flash walking in a wonderland/

I'm wondering if this could be an actuality?/

And if that was the case would it even be normality?/

Well actually, would you even like me now?/

I drink alcohol and do things I'm not allowed/

I rotate records some of them are off beat/

And pour my drink out for you on the dry concrete/

You gave me scars but you made me a better kid/

If heaven is a thing I know you're in there blessing it/

My biggest regret was probably never telling you/

"I love you mom", but all along you knew it too/

HOOK 2:

[Today will you come back to me]

I'm missing you and so does your family/

A tragedy that you left us so rapidly/

At least you're happily hanging out there in the galaxy/

We Are All Shellfish, Sea What I Did There?

Are we all selfish?

Really though, why does anybody do somebody else a favour? (Good grief this is already making me sound like a horrible individual). Is it because of some moral gratification? Is it because we think we'll be divinely rewarded? (Whatever that may mean?) Is it because we have been taught to do so?

When doing somebody a favour, it usually also entails slightly inconveniencing yourself, so really why do we do so in the first place? Most of us have been raised in a way where we were taught that lending a helping hand is the right thing to do. Thus, from infancy we have had this idea embedded in our brains that helping out is simply what's expected. If this was not the case would people be as willing to help out? One can only imagine.

I think a large part of it has to do with the concept of knowing that helping somebody out when they are in trouble or could simply use an extra set of hands is progressive for everybody involved. The idea that by lending a hand or leg we are bringing a greater number of people to a slightly (or bigger) level of comfort and well being. But are we doing it for the right reasons? Is there a right and wrong reason to begin with? Does the extent to how much we help out make a difference at all?

Many have argued that our actions are driven by our selfish  nature. The argument claims that when an individual does a favour for somebody else he/she does so only to be justified by a good, warm, fuzzy feeling of "doing the right thing". That would already counter the idea of doing somebody a favour, because the intentions of doing so are arguably misconstrued.

"Are we all selfish", is really not a question I believe I can answer. Take it how you want, but I find the idea and examples behind such an argument fascinating. 

"Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live." - Oscar Wilde

Lava Lampin' With Flavour

Have some more results of my "twisted" mind. I realize some of these rhymes may make me sound like I think I'm the chosen one, but I like the wordplay and where some of the words/ideas stem from so deal avec (with) it.

Been riding the J Dilla train as far as instrumentals go lately. There's just something about writing to them that makes it so fun. Also there's a fair amount of references to people, music and books in here which made sense to me when I wrote it (and still continue to make sense), but they may not be clear to everybody. Do look up Otis Jackson Jr. though, I was serious about that.

Jaylib - The Red (Instrumental)

Case of writers block, look in children's books for big words/

Can't find a dictionary now my thoughts are just a mixture/

Its The Red,  I'm surprised you haven't heard yet/

Dilla's in the donutshop that's how my mind is working/

I'm short of a dime can't even order Timbits/

They're fueling these lines and n-now I am limping/

Cognac in the back, with the Prozac and Kodiak/

Gulden Draak in the flask as snacks I'm a maniac/

I sat in the back of my shack with insomnia/

Attack the maniac with smacks for schizophrenia/

Beat be beautiful, big shoutout to Jay Dee/

Deejay these donuts back and forth as of lately/

Its the Champion Sound, may I say at least a third of it/

Google Otis Jackson Jr. I'm shocked you haven't heard of him/

Put the record on, the needle touch the vinyl/

Needles in my leg the insulin is mine though/

Chills down your spine, nails on a chalkboard/

Butterflies in your stomach after swallowing a cockroach/

Spit more bars, than there's half pints in 'em/

Attract unstableness and half pipe women/

I'm a Cannibal Ox, you can ask the pastor/

All you'll get is eerie feelings and a sense of Vast Aire/

Menacing like Dennis, when he's rhetoric/

My confederate bike ride by its unsettling/

Calvin's bicycle, but Hobbes always got his back/

Imagination wild to some he's a maniac/

There's Treasure Everywhere gotta open up your eyes/

Bill Watterson did and look who struck a goldmine/

A Kind of Kind

This isn't really an essay type entry of sorts, but more of an observation really. There is a saying, "its the little things in life [that make it great]",  I have just kind of shrugged off that concept for a while. But to be honest, those are words of wisdom. People run around chasing that number 1 spot, chasing the dollar, chasing their dreams, chasing their goals but is all that running around really getting you in shape? Sure I think it can be beneficial to set goals for ones self, but if you can't enjoy the route there, then it seems to me like its a lot of stress and unease for a small or big reward. Say the reward is big after all, is it really worth all the blood sweat and tears? Wait a minute, I may be a little bit dramatic here. It is not to say that you're either going to be miserable if you don't always enjoy the little things. I think its about finding the appropriate balance between having goals and enjoying those "little things" - that is also not to say that the two cannot be combined. What is that appropriate balance? I think that is something everybody needs to determine for themselves. Everybody runs at their own pace and grinds on their own gears. Where am I going with this? I think the saying "its the little things", can be slightly misunderstood, or fractionally understood for the potential it has. The little things don't always need to be the little things around you, it doesn't all need to be observed from one's own perspective. You can add to those little things for others and I think this is really where the magic happens. For example, say hello to somebody you walk past on the street or path you are on. There is this one elderly gentleman who I sometimes pass when I go for a bike ride. He is often working on the garden at Klahanie Park, and is more often than not already talking to another passerby. Every single time, (please note) EVERY SINGLE TIME! I have passed by him he has always said hello or asked how I was doing with the warmest smile that could easily melt the coldest heart. Even when I am speeding by he takes the time to lift his head from the weeding that he is doing at the time to simply say hello. And it puts me in such an awesome mood every single time! If I'm not feeling the greatest it cheers me up, if I feel great it makes me feel excellent. These are the types of things I am talking about. It may not take a lot for this gentleman to do this, but its a "little thing" and I wish I could tell him how awesome I think that he is. One day I just might.

It saddens me to think that doing favours for others can sometimes be considered "weird" in today's society. I feel like everybody wants to be different but nobody wants to stick out. Take for example the following scenario: somebody is in need of help in front of a large group of people, but nobody is quick to lend assistance. When somebody is in need of help and there are only one or two spectators, often those two spectators are very quick to respond. Studies have been conducted about these very instances. The results have shown that when people are in front of a larger audience they feel intimidated to do anything even when it comes to helping somebody who is in desperate need of support. How mind boggling is that, really?! I think this goes hand in hand with helping others enjoy the little things in life, because if humanity as a whole (this is generalizing obviously) is too proud help out at the cost of standing out, then we have a serious problem to fix!

"There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it." -  Edith Wharton